Wednesday, January 30, 2008

What's going on in there?

Here's a short video on what goes on in there during labor:

Informative Video

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Still Cookin'

This morning I had a midwife appointment, and our baby was playing with the heart beat monitor... it was so fricken neat!! The midwife placed the monitor wand on my belly and our baby kicked/pushed it! Then she would put the monitor wand in a different spot, and we would hear the beat... then the baby would kick the monitor wand again! This happened about 3 times. It was rad. The little one is developing a personality.

Also, all day the baby has been dancing, running from the cops again, doing laps in the hamster cage, dirt twirling, practicing yoga, or whatever it is babies do in the womb. This is the first day I have felt movement all day. And I'll tell you all... it's kind of exhausting me. I feel starved and tired.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Survivng




No, no... I didn't go into labor over the weekend. This is a picture of a baby who was delivered at 27 weeks. This is how big our baby is right now.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Prenatal, Postnatal, Por Vida!

Last week I started Prenatal Yoga, and I believe it to be one of the best practices towards preparation for labor. Not only does it stretch certain important areas, but it also empowers the mind and fills the mother-to-be with a security that can only come from within. It tones the legs for strength, arms for holding, and mind for peace. During my first session I tapped into my worries and fears and replaced these emotions with a belief to trust my baby and my body.

Living life in this modern world is stressful, annoying, heavy, and can be hard on our minds and bodies if we don't take the time to slow down and open our eyes to the beauties in our lives. The gods are laughing as we run around taking care of business, feeding our faces with the little pleasantries of service, forgetting about the simplistic joys of domestication, and climbing that ladder that doesn't exist. This world we all find ourselves living in caters to our fears. It urges us to spend money we don't have, and to fear what we in fact DO have.

Pregnancy is one of those life activities that everyone is afraid of before they experience it. We're shown screaming woman in pain, scared fathers fainting as they watch in terror, a child gasping for air for the first time, and the extremely tired female body deflating. These are some reasons why I was afraid of ever becoming pregnant. It seemed to be impossible for me, and I couldn't understand why women go through the huge ordeal. But when faced with the prospect of everlasting love and partnership, creating a family, facing my fears, living life the best way I can... not having a child was no longer an option. My attitude had to change, and I had 9 months to prepare my mind and body for one of the most amazing events I will ever experience.

In 14 weeks I will be hitting my due date, which YES! ...is frightening, but the more I prepare myself in every way I can the easier it will be to combat this fear. It's a lot of work, but it's my duty as a mother to be selfless and determined to do the best I can. Life is beautiful... and I'm so thankful to be apart of it.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Family Car!!!






We bought our first family car from a very nice (older) couple who were the fist owners and drove the car only 26K miles!! It's so nice, and the first car I've owned with AC. TIR.

YAY! Car seat and stoller to come.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Natural Birth... call me a hippy...

Well, I was going to write this whole entry about why I am not delivering our baby in a 'traditional' way and instead we're going to try a water birthing method. I was going to direct you to links of videos online comparing the two different ways you can bring a child into the world, but I don't want to scare too many of you. It's pretty graphic and a lot of screaming goes on...

...but if you want to see the differences: Go to youtube, search "water birth" or "hypnobirthing" or "unassisted birth", and watch a few videos. Kind of scary, but not too bad... there's a lot of love and a little pain, but for the most part it looks relatively do-able. Kind of like taking a big, hard dump. ***Then, type in the simple word: "birth"... and just take a look at all that blood and poking the vag and pulling the baby's head out and intrusive behaviour!!! Ugh... makes me wonder why the hell women go through all that unnecessary pain.

I do not want a doctor's fingers (no matter how gentle they are) pulling my vag and reaching inside for the head... dude, it will come! Be Patient! OH!! and do not put my legs in stirrups, either. Let me squat, lean, stand, sit in water, and be comfortable. This is the baby's time, and not yours.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Week 25


This was taken just 30 minutes ago, and I'm in awe of my mass. If the next month grows like the previous month I just don't know what will become of me. Does anyone know of a good tent-dress designer?

Getting Impatient...

It's been almost 2 months since we saw our little herhim on the radiology screen. I keep wondering what shehe looks like now with fat on herhis body. I have 3 more months to go, and I'm already starting to get impatient. What will the final month be like??? Wow... anxious. Totally can't wait to meet the little girlguy.

So, I finally committed myself to a baby registry. Here is the link... let me know if I've forgotten the most essential baby thing in the whole existance of baby things... and I'll add it. Or if I've gone overboard with adding things that I don't need- please feel free to tell me I'm nuts.

baby registry link

Oh, speaking of nuts... I crave almonds right now. Last week it was muffins, but this week it's almonds. I guess it could be worse... like a good, healthy pickle and mayo sandwich craving. I've heard they're all the rage this season.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

A Few Weeks Ago


This was before the New Year... as you can see by the date, dur!!

Monday, January 14, 2008

Tears of Endearment

Three huge milestones have occurred starting my 25th week. The first being I'm noticeably, noticeably pregnant. Frankly, I walk with a hitch in my giddy-up, and I have the Belly. While in San Francisco this past weekend a few friends and I were riding the MUNI between the Mission District and Downtown for a shopping extravaganza! On our way back to the Mission a woman on the overcrowded MUNI tapped me on the shoulder and offered me her seat. Apparently this is what happens when you're pregnant: Special Treatment.

The second stone to land on my plate is the weight gain. I've been slowly gaining weight this whole time, and to be honest I thought I would skate through this pregnancy gaining only the baby. However, I stepped on the scale yesterday and in the past month alone I've gained 5 pounds!! EEK... I blame the holidays.

Now the tears have always flown freely from my emo eyes... but the past few weeks I've been a damned waterfall. Jacob and I were playing around the other night and he started to tickle me, which any other non-pregnancy time would just get me laughing hysterically. Well, this hysterical laughter brought me to a confused emotion of laughing-screaming-crying. I started bawling and laughing at the same time. I just started sobbing, and he had to hold me. Nothing is more strange than sobbing for laughing. The whole thing was surreal. AND then today I received this link from my good friend Kennedy:

BABY MOVIE

...which just really sent me over the edge. The whole thing from their beautiful babies to the music to the belly to the dialog between Ethan and Carol when she's in the hospital and says how nervous she is. It made me think of all the growing that is going on within myself and it made me feel very connected to other humans. Deeply moved... I cried for my baby, for Jacob, for me, and for this beautiful family that we're starting.

Oh, I guess there's another thing that happened recently: my breasts look like a map of San Francisco- they're that veiny.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Movement in Utero

Ladies, you know when you go to the gyno and they poke around in there and it's kind of uncomfortable because... well... someone's poking around in there? Ok, well take that feeling minus the stirrups, instruments, and gyno and you have BABY MOVING!!

I just started my 6th month (I KNOW!!!) and the baby really likes to dance around in my uterus and punch me in the cervix. About 3 or 4 times during the night/early morning I am awoken by the restless little swimmer. Uh OH!! Takes after the momma... whoops!! We have a night owl...

After I wake up there's a game I play for 30 -90 minutes of HOW DO I GET COMFY?? Being a belly sleeper I've had to learn to sleep on my side. RBM. I need to invest in a body pillow and a better matress topper because my hips ache in the morning and my legs fall asleep... another rbm.

OK... enough bitching... THE most wonderful thing about feeling the baby move is the connection I am starting to make. When I feel it moving about I place my hands firm on my belly and it seems to have a calming effect. AND... Jacob felt it moving the other day... almost threw me in tears.

I can't wait for you to feel it.

IT = HIM/HER... HE/SHE...
IT = non-gender specific... although I've had 2 dreams now where it's a boy.

Prenatal yoga starts next week!! I'm so excited. The walking has diminished due to the weather... sad, but true. Must take it indoors now. Plus, yoga will help during the birth. Gotta stay relaxed and loose.